Dear Introverted, Overthinker Self Beyond the Panorama July 5, 2021

Dear Introverted, Overthinker Self

Written by Aishwarya Roy

It’s three in the night, and I’m writing to you.

The sky’s dripping into your mug

And you taste rain.

It’s the same mug in which you once used to drink hot rainbows,

Topped with chocolate chips.

The days taste cold and bland.

And so does your tea.

The nights smell of meltdown,

Puffy eyes, lips quivering – like the flickering of an old tubelight.

You long to remember the feeling of returning home,

After a long hard day of work –

Unhooking your bra, you’d change into loosely hung clothes,

And lie down on your warm bed.

Like Polaroids exposed to sunlight for months,

Your memories begin to fade.

The way you cry into your palms and your pillows, it’s almost like

Your sadness suffers from stage fright.

You’ve swapped shimmery LBDs for nightgowns,

And Kajals for dark circles.

The night is spilling into morning,

And you’re staring at your ceiling, which resembles a zigzagging chaos –

One that imitates a maze, but has no exit.

For someone who once hated a speck of dust on the carpet,

I see you not making any effort to pick up the tee you left back.

The carpet is confused.

And so am I.

Your incessant WhatsApp texts read piles of,

“𝘐𝘡’𝘴 𝘨𝘰π˜ͺ𝘯𝘨 𝘡𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘰𝘬𝘒𝘺.” “𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘡𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘢.” “𝘞𝘦 𝘒𝘳𝘦 π˜ͺ𝘯 𝘡𝘩π˜ͺ𝘴 𝘡𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘡𝘩𝘦𝘳.”

But are you, with yourself?

(hi, will you please look up?)

Here’s a reminder to not always look for patterns in clouds, music in waves,

Poetry in a person.

The world is not supposed to be a beautiful place, all the time.   

Your meltdowns are not poetic,

And the coffee stain on your table cloth is not at all metaphorical.

History has recorded a tangible trail of incredible writing,

Be it in the plague, times of war, in the shackles of tragedy.

So write that little piece of poetry

For yourself.

And take some time to be grateful for all the extraordinary things

You’ve had taken for granted –

Long walks. Small talks.

Sitting at cafΓ©s and smiling at complete strangers. And them smiling back.

Holding hands. Hugs. Longest hugs.

The roads are empty,

And the hearts are full of longing.

It’s four in the morning, and I’m brewing some tea.

(I love the smell of cinnamon sticks. Do you, too?)

As you wait in anticipation,

Dressed in yearning skin,

My tired fingers are writing this poetry for someone,

They can touch the whole universe with.

With a wake-up call and a steaming cup of masala chai,


Aishwarya Roy
Aishwarya Roy

Aishwarya writes descriptive verses on life, and narrates powerful tales of all that the world has to offer.

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