Sitting in the balcony space
With the breeze touching my cheeks
The warmth of black coffee
Spreading through my body
I search for a trace of joy in me
All I could do is keep searching
In the never-ending spiral
I put my hand up and ask for help
All I could reach was a blank mind space
With the dazing flame of hope
I think of surrendering
To the black hole of insecurities
But something is holding me back
It is something unknown
Something not defined yet
It is struggling to keep me from drowning into the never-ending darkness
With a size so small and energy so high
It is trying to push me to find a light
I am still trying and trying
One day I will keep the flame of hope brighter
And see a vision that is clearer without my fears infecting it.
All I could do now is trust the unknown familiar stranger.
