I know, quite an unusual heading…
“Can you help me become perfect?”
“I am not happy with myself”.
“Can you please help me correct myself?”
“I have everything in my life, I have acquired name and prestige but regardless, it feels something is amiss, can you help me find that?” Every day I am inundated with similar questions.
Whether it’s my yoga class or a Reiki healing session or the counseling session with my clients, one thing in common with all the souls I come across is that they all are “seeking perfection.”
About a year ago, I woke up quite thrilled because that day was my coffee date with the most amazing lady I know. For me, by far, she was/still is one of the most incredible woman I have come across. I have always thought that she possesses a magic wand with which she can revise all issues and crises in the blink of an eye. I was so excited to meet her that I reached the coffee shop 15 minutes prior to the meeting time. As I said, for me she is a Super Woman so I gave my best shot to become as “perfect” as I could! She entered the café at exactly 5 PM and needless to say, I wasn’t surprised at all, that was so her… We promptly ordered our coffee and rolled on to the meeting. We talked about yoga, and it’s benefits, basically, she asked me everything that a corporate HR Head would have asked me before offering me the opportunity to conduct Yoga sessions at their prestigious organization. I presented to her the relevant and necessary details. Then she started asking me more questions related to mind, body, and emotions, and I remember vividly that I told her, “yoga is a beautiful science of angles and triangles. It doesn’t fix us because there is nothing wrong with us.” With total conviction, I further stated, “Yoga teaches us self-acceptance and self-acceptance, unlocks the door to self-improvement.”
And she immediately added, “And with self-improvement we become perfect. Right?”
“Perfect?” I asked myself, “Did I hear that right? She had also used “perfect.”
I was dumbfounded for a while. I didn’t know what to say to her. Because her gaze was fixed on me waiting for a response from me. Even though I wasn’t sure of what my reply should be, and I blurted out “YES!”
We didn’t realize, the work-related meeting got over long ago and we continued conversing over the cup of coffee and that’s when exactly a second time she stunned me, she said, “Savina, I am not happy. I run this organization. I travel around the world. Colleagues and peers admire me, respect me. Despite everything, I strongly feel that I am not perfect and maybe that’s why my personal life is zero.” She continued, “What do you think that I lack? Can that be fixed? Can you help me alter my life? All other areas of my life are going great only in this area I fail terribly over and over again.” I for the first time noticed sadness on her face. I myself was utterly confused.
I didn’t know whether to feel sad with her and for her or should I feel shocked at the truth I discovered? The truth that the person whom I looked up to, the person who for me, was an embodiment of passion, strength, and boldness turned out to be the exact contrary. Nevertheless, I think we both were smart enough to conceal our true state of mind and emotions and called for the bill, to leave the café. We said goodbye and before leaving we decided to have the next meeting a week after at her office. She sat in her car and waved at me and a few seconds later, I also settled myself in my car. I was heading home, I realized that other than my mind, everything else- the route, the direction, the speed of the car everything was moving perfectly. I could feel the monkey jumping in my head, making me insane and demented. A few questions dancing in my head were, what is “perfection”? Is it that none of us is perfect? If we are created imperfect for a reason then why we are not in acceptance of ourselves as we are? And so on… Basically, I got some work to do, to tame the monkey in my head!
Two days passed by but this entire episode didn’t leave my thoughts. Thus, I decided to ask the Divine to calm the storm within. I started meditation with these questions as the reference point. And about maybe 15 minutes later, I started receiving the information. I kept sitting unmoved and steady because the words I was hearing were like a melody infusing information into my cells and that felt like serenity. That relay of information continued for about 8 to 10 minutes. And after the Spirit went completely silent, I opened my eyes, I felt some different energy emitting out of me as if I was a different person. I instantly grabbed my notebook and pen to record the download I received.
I was elated beyond words to receive the answer to my question.
I asked, “What is being perfect?”
And the Spirit said, “The ‘perfect you’ isn’t something that you have to create, because I have already made you perfect. The perfect you are nothing else but the love and devotion within you. Your duty is to let the Holy Spirit discard the troubled thinking that encompasses your perfect and true self, just as extra marble that surrounded Michelangelo’s perfect statue. To know and recall that you are part of Divine, that you are precious and lovable, is not proud. It’s modest. To think you are anything else or less is disrespectful, and arrogant because it signifies you’re not a creation of God. Love is stable and consequently so are you.
You haven’t done or committed anything nor will you ever do anything that will contaminate your perfection in the eyes of God. You are being entitled to His love and you are worthy in His eyes because of what you are, not because of what you do. What you do or don’t do is not what determines your basic value—your expansion perhaps, but “not your value”. That’s why God wholly upholds and accepts you, exactly as you are. What’s not to like?” Spirit further added, “you were not created in sin; you were created in love.” I was in awe, my jaw dropped. That was quite a remarkable answer from the spirit.
After I wrote the message, I read it over and over again, and from that what I understood is, “nothing that I do, believe, want or make is necessary to establish my worth. I am a child of God. I was sculpted, like Michelangelo’s statue, in the glorious image and likeness of HIS imaginativeness, I am the first thought when God extended Himself in love, and everything else I have added on since is unnecessary and useless.
When Michelangelo was inquired how he created a piece of sculpture, he responded that the statue already prevailed within the marble by God himself. I simply disposed of the excess marble that enclosed God’s creation.
I also understood that if I go deep enough into your mind, and deep enough into mine, we have the same mind. The belief of “Krishna consciousness”, or “Christ consciousness” is the impression that, at our core, we are not just identical, but actually the same being, we are perfect.
It reminds me of the verse from the Bible, “There is only one begotten Son” (John 3:16 (chapter 3, verse 16 of the Gospel of John of the New Testament). This verse doesn’t mean that someone else was it, and we are not. It says we’re all it. We are like the branches on the same tree, all emitting out from the same center. If we define ourselves according to our position on the tree, we appear different and distinct from one another. But if we comprehend ourselves according to our beginning point, our source—the center of the tree—we are all a shared identity. If we scour deep enough into each other’s minds, the image is the same: at the bottom of it all, what we are all is only perfect love.
Many years ago, I read somewhere that, “the love in one of us is the love in all of us.” and now it makes complete sense to me.
There’s literally no place where God ceases and you begin, and no place where you cease and I begin. Love is energy, an eternal flow. Your mind extends into mine and into everyone else’s. It doesn’t stay contained within our bodies. Just as light can’t separate itself from the sun, and a tide can’t separate itself from the sea, we can’t free ourselves from one another. We are all fraction of a massive ocean of love, one inseparable divine mind. This truth of who we really are doesn’t change; we just forget it. We recognize with the idea of a tiny, distinct self, rather of the belief that in reality, we are one with everyone.
You are not who you think you are. Aren’t you happy? You’re not your degrees, or your certifications, or your home. The sun, the moon continues to shine and the sea goes on rising and falling, unaware of the truth that a part of their individuality has forgotten what it is.
We are who God created us to be. We are all one, we are love itself. Recognizing God is just a shift in self-perception. When we wake up to see the God within, we see love. Love is God and God is love and that is perfection. When we will wake from the illusion that we are limited, barren beings, and believe that we are beautiful, abundantly valuable spirits, when we will regain consciousness from the concept that we are vulnerable then we will understand that the power of the cosmos is within us.
When that curtain that separates us from God- the source, will be lifted up, only then we will be able to see our real self, the PERFECT self!